Friday, April 04, 2008

A worm with wings



A worm with wings
Dedicated to my four daughters

I am but a worm.
A worm made beautiful
by its four wings.
A worm with color,
A worm with flight,
a higher perspective
than most worms…
Only because I’ve
been graced with the gift
of my four wings!
My wings carry me higher,
My wings give me color,
My wings give me perspective,
My wings are my beauty.
Without them I am just a worm.
My four wings..
all lift me higher
all make me brighter
God’s gift of grace
of flight, of color
of beauty to me.

What is a butterfly?
It’s a worm with wings.

cjb

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

painted 4.1.08 Butterfly




It’s not a calling that I seek
But The One who calls.
Not a burning bush I need
But, the flame!
I want a passion
Not a program.
A commission
For our mission.
I want anointment
Not an appointment.
This is what I want..
More of you!
This is what I ask..
Equip me Lord,
For every task.
This is my desire..
Set me on fire.
You are my passion

cjb

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Through me

Awaken my soul to know Your will
not by human impulse,
But by the story You would tell

Spirit, make known Your desires,
Lead me by Your passion
and make Your love my fire!

The story of my life is You
The song in my heart is You
The love of my life is You

Oh, Lord, tell them all!
Fulfill Your Word,
Awaken our souls,
Tell Your story Lord,
Your will unfold.

Awaken Your love
Send Your fire!
Sing Your song Lord,
Through me
Through me


cjb

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Let me know what you think....a new way to share my poetry.

Monday, February 11, 2008

For a Friend- A friend of God

God makes everything beautiful in his time
He sees beyond what others can’t find
He knows your pain, the trap you’re in
God can set you free and break all sin.

Do you hear him when he calls?
When everything fails and your spirit falls
He speaks so clearly in your heart’s ear
Move in obedience and do not fear.

God makes everything beautiful in his time
Confusion and brokenness he does not mind
He knows all things and can see the end
His name is faithful- He is your friend

God makes everything beautiful in his time
Forgiveness and healing are always mine
He fills me with the daily strength I need
God teaches endurance, he buries the seed

Yes, I hear him when he calls!
When everything fails and my spirit falls
He speaks so clearly in my heart’s ear
I will move in obedience- I will not fear.

Make everything beautiful Lord
In your time, in your time-
Make everything beautiful Lord.

cjb
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
Ecclesiastes 3:11

Thursday, January 31, 2008

I will wait on God

I will wait for the Lord
I will wait for the Lord
He is the goal
The desire of my soul
I will wait for the Lord

When everything I plan
Slips through my hands like sand
I will wait for the Lord

When days seem gray
Crashing like cold winter waves
I will wait for the Lord

When hope burns down
Melting away throughout my day
I will wait for the Lord

He hears me when I pray
He loves me come what may
I will wait for the Lord

cjb
I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
Psalm 130:5 (NIV)

Monday, January 21, 2008

Newest Soldiers


Ephesians 6:13-18
"Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints."

Friday, December 28, 2007

He holds me in the darkness

He holds me in the darkness
He never lets me go,
I do not see the future prize
Nor have the need to know.

When life gives me a beating,
Why would I lift my hand?
To share in all His sufferings,
I know this is His plan.

He never has forgotten,
I'm always on His mind.
So in the darkness I do rest.
I know that He is kind.

Suffering for a moment
Is nothing in the end,
'cause vindication always comes
To those who trust in Him.


cjb
"Now if we are children, then we are heirs--heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
Romans 8:17-18

Thursday, December 20, 2007

I love you more!

She says, she loves me "bigger than all the stars"
and goes to sleep pleased with her declaration, content...
that in this "love game", she has won.
But as she sleeps,
I watch and love her more.


Psalm 121:3-5a

" He will not let your foot slip-

He who watches over you will not slumber;

indeed, He who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord watches over you..."

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

To blog or not to blog

To blog or not to blog that is the question!
A soap box for some, for others connection.
For me it has been a time of reflection.
Yet, should I blog on? That is my question.

Is it a good way to spend some of my time?
Is it inefficient to reason or wasteful to rhyme?
How does it change this world we live in?
Too many questions, where to begin?

If I cease to blog will the earth stop it’s spin?
If I continue to blog will change rise within?
It’s not my computer nor is time all my own.
Yet through this blogging, I think I have grown.

Through Larry’s questions (even those that make some groan!)
Through Drew’s observations that I’ll never bemoan.
The links that connect me are more than a few
But each one takes me to someone's point of view.

To blog or not to blog?
It’s under review…..

CJB


HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Monday, October 15, 2007

Mountains of Meteora










This is not so much a poem as a reaction, words to the experience I had while visiting the mountains of Meteora. You can see this site in the pictures Alastair has taken above or in the Movie “For Your Eyes Only”, staring Roger Moore.


This was one of the places on our educational tour in Greece where Apostle Paul did not go. However…007 did!



The Rocks cry out

Mountains
Rising up like fingers
Like ships run aground
Rocks crying out
How awesome is our God!

Monasteries precariously
Clinging to the cliffs edge
Men seeking a higher place
Seeking God
Who formed the very rocks
they balance on

Each rock formation
Standing on its own.
Isolated
like the monks
Who live in their caves
Yet, standing together
like a great wall.

A wide expanse of mountains
Contrasted with a small
dark rooms of incense.
Incense too think to breathe freely

saints painted on walls
speaking loudly
voices
voices
voices
of the past
no rest for my spirit
simplicity lost.

Icons with closed lips
Their lives have testified
all has been said
“asleep but not dead”

Wake up!
Wake up and step outside
See the Rock on which you
Have built your shelter.
The rock from which you were cut

Breath in the
Fresh mountain air
Hear creation testifying
He Lives
He lives
He Lives!

Leave the small dark rooms
Leave your caves
See the Light of day
See the Glory of the Lord
It’s outside your window
For the whosoever
For you
For me
For the whole world to see.

I’ve heard the rocks cry out!
How awesome is our God!

cjb

Monday, October 08, 2007

Greece


First few hours in Greece, with jet lag.
Sitting under the olive trees in Athens across from Mars Hill.
(R to L or L to R - Carole, Sue, Sue and Carol)

Click here for slideshow

Monday, September 17, 2007

Believe

Believe that the seed planted will grow.
Believe that the word given he will bestow.
Believe that he rewards those who seek him.
BELIEVE and he'll bless you beyond reason!

cjb

Thursday, September 13, 2007

This day is His

I will not worry
what this day will bring
Because I know,
I’m in step with my King

He holds my hand
He leads the way
This day is His,
Come what may.

Remain in me and I will remain in you
Great wonders you will see
As my Spirit comes alive in thee,
Remain in me.

The miracle is this;
That God’s character could be
Contained in THIS jar of clay.

Remain in me and I will remain in you
Great wonders you will see
As my Spirit comes alive in thee
Remain in me.

What do I want?
Fruit to be seen.
Fruit that you are alive
and living in me,
Remain in me.

He holds my hand
He leads the way
This day is His,
Come what may.

cjb

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Ruth's song




You send me home
With arms of grain
It is more than I deserve
Yes, more than I deserve
My arms are full

You cover me,
You hide my shame
It is more than I deserve
Yes, more than I deserve
I am your own

At the city gates on my behalf,
Before the elders you speak for me.
You are more than I deserve
Yes, more than I deserve

To be your bride
To take your name
You redeem my life
I am not the same
It’s more than I deserve

Now I’m no longer called a servant
Now I am called your wife
Your household bows before me
You have redeemed my life

A future, I now have
Inheritance is mine
It is all by your own hand
This new full life of mine.

It’s more than I deserve
Yes, more than I deserve
my inheritance is secure
It’s all by your own hand

Your loving kindness
Your mercy and grace
Your love divine is all mine,
You’ve removed all my disgrace

It is more than I deserve
Yes, more than I deserve
Your love, your son
You’re more than I deserve
My kinsman redeemer.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

M-M-M-My Schwannoma!

They removed my schwannoma because it was getting on my nerves!

What is a schwannoma? In short it is a tumor/outgrowth on a nerve.
I found out about three months ago that I had some mass growing in me about the size of a ping-pong ball. The doctors all agreed it needed to be removed. They could not tell from the MRI and ultra-sounds if it was attached to anything important and at the time they were unsure as to what it was exactly.
So, feeling completely fine, I checked into the hospital last week and had surgery to remove this “ping-pong” sized enigma.
Abdominal surgery, even laparoscopic, has a way of making a healthy person feel sick. After one night in the hospital they told me the ping-pong was removed, everything looks great and the next day I could go *home.
Six days later at my check up the Doctor says, “So the punch line is this…you had a schwannoma and it was resting on a nerve. Do you feel any different with it gone?”
Actually, I did feel different. I felt like someone ran over me with a truck, like I could sleep for a week and when I walked I looked like my grandmother in her 90’s.
However this is not what I told the Doctor. I just told him my left knee (that has bothered me for years) when I sit for long periods didn’t hurt anymore. Could it have been a pinched nerve that now was no longer pinched?
He just raised an eyebrow and said, “Sure, I’ll take credit for that!”

So my schwannoma is gone.
( I kinda like saying that word… SCHWANNOMA!)
Strangely enough my knee which is no where near my abdomen :) …. feels better and I am in recovery from the surgery.
God is good.
You see, I didn’t even know there was anything wrong but the Lord knew and through a series of seemingly random events he made it clear to me and to the physicians. Those who knew how to help me, who were trained for this kind of work did what they had to do to remove it. As a result, I feel pain for awhile because of the surgery but in the long run I am healthier.

What’s getting on your nerves? Is it affecting your walk with God?

How often do we have something resting on our “last nerve” slowly growing with in us and we don’t realize how it is affecting our walk with the Lord, our relationship with others.

The removal process can be painful but the end results are health for the whole body.

Hebrews 12:10-13
“Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. Make level paths for your feet," so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.”

* Thank you to my parents for coming to stay with us, helping with the house and the kids!


Wednesday, August 15, 2007

A Battle Cry


I stand before the throne of God interceding. God is high and lifted up on his throne. I am on the right and there is one who opposes on the left. I face the Lord making my request known to him. As I speak with the Lord, the one who opposes my every word becomes louder and louder. I turn and face him. He is angry, yelling at me but when I look at him his words are sharpened with a mocking tone. I see those standing behind him jeering and cheering him on. In this moment of discouragement I turn my head to look at the throne of God and I see the Lord tilting his head with a smile as if to say “look behind you”. I looked behind me and there standing with me was a great multitude of people. An ocean of people as far as the eye can see. Some of them look right at me and I knew them. They were those who had gone before me. My grandparents, great-grandparents on both sides of my family and my husband’s ancestors as well. I also saw ancestors of soldiers and officers in the Army. Most were people who I had never met before but who had invested in the Kingdom of God; people who had been faithful. They were standing there cheering me on and claiming with me God’s promise to be faithful to the generations of those who have loved him and obeyed His Word. I knew they respresented our heritage standing before the throne of grace warring for us, warring with us.

Suddenly, standing there looking at this great cloud of witnesses, a wave of encouragement and strength in the spirit overwhelmed me. At that moment I turned to look my accuser in the eye. As I turned my eyes locked with my mocker and I saw the fear in his eyes. Those behind him fled before I even opened my mouth and when I spoke, I directed my words right at him.
However, they were not so much words….
What does one say in a moment like that?
One screams! One shouts! A battle cry!
Picture it like the scene of the last battle in the movie Braveheart. The shout of William Wallace echoed by all who stood with him….. the battle cry! Each time they shouted, they became louder and more in unison. They were ready to fight to the death. This is the position I now took before my accuser standing with the great cloud of witnesses before the throne of God. Our shouts of victory, our battles cries of past and present bled into one voice.

In that moment, the mocker, the accuser, the one who opposes was reminded of the truth that is ours…….We have already won! The Battle is the Lords! The victory is ours! There are more for us than against us and those who oppose God will be broken. Truth like that has a way of making the enemy slither away. His only hope is to keep us ignorant of this reality, to keep us discouraged and fearful of him. Once we know the truth, once he sees in our eyes that we KNOW the TRUTH….what else can he do but flee?

Do you believe it?
Sound the battle cry!
There is victory in Jesus!
We have already won.

Hebrews 12:1 “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”

Monday, August 13, 2007

Intercede



‘This far and no further!’ says Gandalf in the Lord of the Rings. He is standing on a thin bridge, his words directed at a flying fire-breathing dragon. He holds his ground and emphasizes his words by slamming down his staff. The bridge breaks and Gandalf falls wrestling with the dragon to unseen depths.

I keep hearing these words, the words of Gandalf. “This far and no further!”
These are the words of my own soul when I intercede before the Lord.
Satan has had his time. He has wreaked havoc long enough. It is time to claim back the land that belongs to our King, to recapture the hearts and minds of his people, those dedicated to and for His purposes.

This is where it stops! We can stand with Gandalf on the bridge and say to satan, “This far and no further!” You have stolen our sons and daughters; you have made a mockery out of our attempts to follow God. You have found pleasure in our weaknesses and have stolen ground that was never yours to take.

We are at fault too. We have sinned against God and our ancestors; we have not kept the vows of our youth and have let the enemy enter our promised land through the open doors of hypocrisy, apathy and ignorance. The gates to our cities have not been guarded, the enemy has had his time but we can say, “This far and no further!”

This is a call to intercessors for such a time as this. As it was with Nehemiah a time has come for a re-building of our city walls and a time has come for the ancient gates to lift up their heads. Nehemiah appointed families to build up and guard the walls and gates from the threats of the surrounding enemy. As intercessors we must take our appointed places, guard our gates, re-build our city walls. We need people to take a stand for what is rightfully ours. We need people who will go forth to claim back that which was stolen from us. We need men and women to stand against the enemy and say defiantly “This far and no further!”

The Battle is the Lords.

1 John 3:8b “The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the devil's work.”